There are times when I have very profound (Or at
least I think they are) thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that I feel
everyone should know. These are the thoughts where everything is making since
and I long deep in my heart to tell the world. These are the thoughts that God
is whispering to my heart. He does this often you see. He speaks gently to my
very soul. Causing me at times, to beam with excitement. To run, jump and
spin in circles. I want to spring into action. Other times I can barely hear a
sound. From deep within I shout questions to God, but I hear nothing in reply.
This is how it's been lately. I long to feel some kind of direction. To
hear some kind of answer to my prayers. I want to feel that God is proud of the
decisions I'm making. It's so hard not feeling anything. Everything in my life
has always been easy. I have always known where God was leading me. He was
always clear a direct. But now, nothing. I heard this quote at church a couple
of weeks ago..and it spoke to my heart. "The providence of God is
almost impossible to see in the moment." This quote is so true, and really
it has been what’s keeping me from going insane. I believe with all my heart
that he has a plan for every weird, crazy, upsetting and totally random thing.
He will provide everything I need and he cares about what I'm going through. I
believe all these things...but I just want to hear from him. I want clear cut
directions on how to proceed with my life. So I'll wait. I'll wait to
hear him whisper back the answers to my shouted questions. Whispers are all I
want to hear. I long to hear him call my name.
