It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.

There are times when I have very profound (Or at least I think they are) thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that I feel everyone should know. These are the thoughts where everything is making since and I long deep in my heart to tell the world. These are the thoughts that God is whispering to my heart. He does this often you see. He speaks gently to my very soul. Causing me at times, to beam with excitement. To run, jump and spin in circles. I want to spring into action. Other times I can barely hear a sound. From deep within I shout questions to God, but I hear nothing in reply. This is how it's been lately. I long to feel some kind of direction. To hear some kind of answer to my prayers. I want to feel that God is proud of the decisions I'm making. It's so hard not feeling anything. Everything in my life has always been easy. I have always known where God was leading me. He was always clear a direct. But now, nothing. I heard this quote at church a couple of weeks ago..and it spoke to my heart. "The providence of God is almost impossible to see in the moment." This quote is so true, and really it has been what’s keeping me from going insane. I believe with all my heart that he has a plan for every weird, crazy, upsetting and totally random thing. He will provide everything I need and he cares about what I'm going through. I believe all these things...but I just want to hear from him. I want clear cut directions on how to proceed with my life. So I'll wait. I'll wait to hear him whisper back the answers to my shouted questions. Whispers are all I want to hear. I long to hear him call my name.

Open House...

Last night we had open house. Open house is always really weird and kind of awkward. At Ozark, because we don't have co-ed dorms they allow each dorm to have an open house once a semester. So for three hours the guys are allowed to view the inner workings of a girls dorm. They get to see our rooms and just hang out on our floors. For the first 30 minutes or so the boys go through what I like to call "culture shock" they are amazed at how much color there really is and how good everything smells. I'm sure their wondering " how in the world can one girl have and fit that much stuff into one room."
There are always the boys that come to open house just because of the food. The ones that come to see what their girlfriends room looks like.The boys that come planning on leaving with a girlfriend. You sometimes get the one that are just really creepy. Here's how a conversation might go on open house...
Girl- "Hi" (wondering who the strange boy standing in her room is?)
Strange boy- "I like your room."
Girl - "Thanks" (still wondering who said strange boy is)
Strange boy- [exits room after grabbing a few cookies].
Girl- [turns to roommate] " Who was that??"
Roommate- "I have no Idea"
Girl- "Quick lock the door before he comes back!"
Ha! Not all conversations go like this but...It has happened. :)
Open house has been compared to being like zoo animals on display.
Most of the time after the first 30 min. or so things become not as awkward and you just get to run around crazy. We always have a lot of fun! :)  Here are a few pictures of what my room looks like this semester...

Chicken nuggets, Potatoes and Green Beans!

True, authentic, real life, totally revolved around people ministry has been on my mind lately.
      - What does it really mean to live a life of ministry??
      - What does it really mean to live life together as a body of believers?
      - What do you think??

I want to be totally devoted to showing Christ's love through my actions and the way I live my life. I have been thinking and pondering (almost on a daily basis) what I want to do with the rest of my life. I've been racking my brain and trying to decided what kind of things I am good at...the things I'm passionate about and the things I absolutely love.
 I'm good at singing, God has given me a gift and I want to use it for him...but that's not my calling I'm just good at that.
I'm passionate about people. They energize me. I love being around people. People inspire me to do better. I want to serve, care for, listen to and be there for people. I want  my life to be focused around other people. I can't wait to have my own home..where people are always invited. I love the atmosphere when people get together to just hangout or to watch a football game ( I know nothing about football...but if there are people around I will watch it). I loved when I was growing up...My parents would either go to a small group or have one at our house. I loved going or having people come to our house. It was what I looked forward to during the week. Know that on Sunday afternoons, people would always be coming over.
I absolutely love kids! Anywhere from newborn and up. I love them. I love seeing them learn and explore new things. I love reading to them and watching the eyes grow big as they look toward the sky in wonder. I want to love on the lost children and I want to comfort the hurting children. I can't wait to have kids. (well, I can wait...but you get what I mean) I can't wait to watch them grow up. Kids bring so much joy. They see people for who they are and could careless what you look like, talk like, dress like or the people you hangout with. Kids are some of the most forgiving people I know, they will love anyone. They are truly a blessing form God. Kids are a great reminder to us. They have taught me more things that I could count.

So after all this I still don't know what I want to do. I would love to go into missions, but I would also love to be a teacher or run a daycare. One thing that has been on my heart recently is just...being a mom! (I have had the best mom as an example. Because of her and the great example she has been to me... I know I can be a great mom) I could teach my kids and love on them. I could have a home, where everyone feels welcome, no matter what. I want my house to be warm and inviting. I want people to come over and watch football games on Sundays. I want to host a bible study or small group. I want to have game nights and food. I want to have movie nights and just have people stop by to talk. Being a mom gives me the opportunity to be involved heavily in the church. Where people should always be the focus. I could use my gift for singing in church. I could also help with the kids. I want to do behind the scenes work and be the person that people come to when they need help.
All this to say...God is working on me. I'm not sure where he's leading...but I know he's leading.
         Do you have any input on this matter??
        What should I do with the rest of my life??
        Where can you see God leading me??  

Another thing that has been coming up a lot recently is love languages.
What is my love language you ask?
     Well I'm glad you asked :)
My love language is quality time. And if you know me at all...you can see this in my life. This is how I show love, receive love and perceive love. The people that mean the most to me are the ones that spend time with me. I feel love when someone wants to spend time with me. I've been thinking about how love languages effect people and  me and they really do. When it comes to me I love when people take time out of their days to call, text or spend even just a small bit of time with me. I love spending time with other people and I LOVE when they spend time with me.
Basically...I have decided that I really want to be involved in ministry. I want to be heavily involved in ministry. And really if you think about it. Ministry can be anything. :)

Tuesday Tours... Ahhh!!!!!

I have my first Tuesday Tour tomorrow. I'm so nervous!! It's going to be crazy! I will most defiantly let you know how is goes. We have 14 people coming and were spiting up into 2 separate tours.  

And for all of you guys that are wondering what a Tuesday Tour is...

  Come Experience Tuesdays at OCC

We think you’ll love your visit to Ozark Christian College, and we’re putting our money where our mouth is. Every high school junior, senior and transfer student who takes a Tuesday Tour will receive a $500 OCC Tuition Scholarship. Come on a scheduled visit nd we will award you with a $500 OCC Tuition scholarship.

This year I am on staff in admissions as a Campus Host. I get to hang out with awesome teens, who have an interest in attending Ozark in the future. I also help with the teen events on campus here ( You should check them out, their AWESOME). I as well as other members of the admissions staff will attend college fairs at schools. It's going to be an awesome school year. The most important part of my job, is to give tours of the school, to people that come visit.  I love being around people...so this is the perfect Job for me. I will get to meet new people and tell them exactly why I love being at Ozark. It's pretty much going to be my favorite thing EVER! :) 

 So if you think about it tomorrow...send a prayer up for me. :)  Also...if your thinking about coming to Ozark...Come let me give you a tour!

Music Speaks To My Soul

it's times like these that make me say, Lord if you see me please come my way...because it's the fear of never falling in love, The joy of new birth and the pain of growing up, the bliss between giving my all and giving up, The highs and lows, the paths and roads I chose...but God I have heartfelt desire be more like you!


I recently have come to the conclusion that music speaks to my soul. I don't know how, or why... but it does. I feel the closest to God when music is playing. I love being able to raise my hands in absolute unashamed worship to my best friend, my maker, my savior, and my redeemer. Music moves me and makes me dance. I have to tap my foot, clap my hands or dance. But i'm telling you....it's not an option, I have no control over my feet when they tap to the beat or when I feel the sudden urge to raise my hands in awe of my savior. It just happens. And in that moment...sometimes it feels like my heart is going to EXPLODE!

 Sometimes I get this strange and sudden feeling...like maybe, just possibly my world could fall apart at any moment...The comfort I have grown so accustom to,   but then I hear the sweet, sweet sound of my savior whispering gently in my ear You ARE LOVED! and I fall to my knees. How can something like three little words, change my entire view of life? 


Untill next time...
 Kristie 
      
      
      

I Thought Summer Was For Rest?!?!

So after much anticipation and counting down the day, summer finally came...and now were only a little less than 3 weeks away from starting a new semester. Crazy right?? I am so ready to start school! I can't believe I'm saying that...but I can't wait for school to start! 

I have really enjoyed my summer up at camp Como! It has be crazy awesome, adventurous, exciting, tiring, wonderful and did I mention tiring??

I could go on and on about all of the stories and different adventures we went on but that would make this blog like 30 billion pages long and I'm way to tired for that!

I have 2 weeks left at camp and I'm hoping they will be slower then the last 2 1/2 months. I'm completely exhausted and in need of a break. But even as I sit here and complain about how tired I am...I am grateful for the things God did in my life this summer. The things he showed me and the adventures he allowed me to experience. I'm thankful for the time in his word I was able to enjoy. I'm thankful for the moments where I allowed God's creation to speak to me. I'm thankful for the friendships that were formed, I'm thankful for the campers that came up. I'm thankful for the TLC's that reminded me of my love for people. I thankful for the chance I got this summer to serve others. My Job consisted of supervising the TLC's. We washed pots and pans, we cleaned a billion trays 3 times a day, we cleaned bathrooms and any other random work project that was assigned to us. But I absolutely LOVED it! I Loved it! It was always a joy to wake up in the morning. I was breathing clean, fresh air (unlike the air in Missouri) I saw bears, cows, deer, tons of ground squirrels and all kinds of other animals. I also got to meet tons of really awesome people. I played games till all hours of the night. I ate to much junk food and decided what my plan would be if zombies attacked. I even made a plan for escape if those zombies happened to be middleschoolers. And even though I got little sleep, became frustrated at times, wished to be home with my family and longed for the day when I could get lost in a good book...I would not trade this summer for anything! I loved my summer! I am so thankful for the opportunity I was granted to be able to work at Como. But being so tired reminds me of a verse I read this past semester... it's 2 Corinthians 6:4-10

  "rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything"

 I want this verse to be true in my life.  I want to always be rejoicing...even when others make me mad. I want to always be rejoicing even when I'm tired and I still have tons of homework to do. So that's what I will be working on this semester. I want to find Joy in everything.

So until next time I'm off to bed. I have to get up at 5 tomorrow morning to head back up to Como. But you can count on one thing,  I will have a smile on my face. Because I am thankful for this day off, because it allowed me to spend some much needed time with my family.

So goodnight moon! :) Sleep tight world!

Kristie

I Pierced My Nose!! ;)

So I got my nose pierced!!! Can you believe it?? It happened really quick...and kind of hurt. 

I like it now...at first I wasn't so sure about it. 

That could have been because I was in pain, but who knows. 

Here's a picture...What do you think?? :) 

  

4 Days, 4 Finals, And one 12 Hour drive till... Colorado!!!

Well, so the count down continues. I have 4 days, 4 finals, and one 12 hour drive till Beautiful Colorado! Then COMO!!!  It's sooo close. 

The only sad part is that my time in Colorado Springs is very limited. We will get Back to the Springs late Thursday night. Then Lakeisha's graduation is on Friday morning, then we have the graduation party. Then what I'm hoping for is a relaxing Saturday.(Ha! My life is always crazy.) Then Church on Sunday! I'm sooo excited and looking forward to worshiping with my Church Family, Meridian Point. I have missed everyone so much. Following church, lunch with my family and then I head up to Como. CRAZY right?  I'm in the Springs for less than 72 hours. :( But this time instead of being 12 hours away in Joplin, I'm only 2 hours away at Como. :) 

But as this semester comes to a close, I can't help but be excited. I'm ready for a break. No homework for three months Ahh..bliss! 

Did I tell you I got a JOB!!! I'm going to be a campus host! I'm really excited!!! It's an on campus job...which is nice. I'm telling you, its going to be an awesome semester!!! :) 

A group of us from Ozark went swing dancing on Friday...It was Amazing! I love to dance! :) 

I can't really think of anything else to say. My sister will be here in three days! :) 

Finals week is upon us. I have very little motivation to study. I must get to studying. lol 

Now, I'm off to dinner! Then I'm going to finish my Christ and the bible take home final. After that my life will end. All I'll be doing is studying or my transcripts will look something like this: Finals = FAIL! 

So with Joy in Christ, 

   Kristie  

Guess what?!?!?! I'm getting MARRIED!!!!

Ha! Just Joking! :) But seriously you know the old bible college saying...Ring by spring...or your money back. :) 

Well, I'm not getting married. And that's not a bad thing ( Although I wouldn't mind getting my money back).  :) I'm happily single and patiently wait for God to bring the right Guy into my life. But enough about my "status". I just wanted to catch your attention. :) Did it work?? 

  

  I'm in the final stretch! I can almost say, that I am a college sophomore. Only 2 days of classes, 4 finals and a 12 hour drive, standing between me and Colorado! This next week is going to be CRAZY!! Everything has gone by so fast. I can't believe that I'm almost done with my first year of college. It has gone by so fast. I could not even begin to tell you about all the things I have learned here at Ozark. I have been so blessed by all of my professors! They have showed me Christ's love, in more ways then I could count. I Love knowing different things about the bible, that I had never known before. I have become a total supporter of anyone and everyone taking at least one year of bible college. Seriously, everyone should take a semester or two...or three... or maybe 4! It's AWESOME! You would love it! 

Finals week is almost here....So your prayers would be much appreciated!

Like I said in one of my previous blogs, I'm working at Como this summer. You have no idea how excited I am. God has some awesome plans for me this summer. I just can't wait to see what they are. I kinda hate not knowing what they are, Love looking toward the unknown, greatly anticipate what could happen, and my hearts desire is to follow God with all that I am, I long for him to overwhelm me with his love, and can't wait to enjoy every minute of his unfailing, constant, ever present, glorious, faithful, and providing grace. 

I've decided that I must expand my vocabulary, so that I can describe how Great my God is! I just can't think of anything worth describing him. He's just to Great! :)  Ha!!! I got it...He's indescribable!!! :) 

Oh yeah, and did I tell you my wonderful twin and My Rachel are flying out to Joplin, to help me drive home! It's going to be glorious! I'm pretty excited! They get to come see Joplin...and me! 

I started packing my room up...it's really bittersweet. I'm excited to get home and see my family before I head off to Como, but I'm really going to miss my OCC family. I'm already counting down the days till I see them again and we haven't even left yet. ( and in case you were wondering...Only 106 days till Were all back on Ozark soil) :)  

So this is a bunch of randomness...but really that just me! I'm always random and kind of overly happy! You get use to it after awhile.  

So really random quote that Barry said in one of his sermons awhile ago, it's kinda be on my heart lately...I'm not sure who originally said it but here it is... "Hope is hearing the melody of the future...faith is the ability to Dance to it." 

 So until next time...I'm off to Dance to the future. ( and if you know me...I will probably literally dance) :)  

Righteous Complaining...

Have you ever been so completely overwhelmed by this world??
God calls us to "feed his children"....But there are so many.
God calls us to "make disciples of all nations"...I don't even know where to begin.
"Care for the orphans and the widow"...How do I get started?
So as I sit here in the laundry room ( My favorite place to do homework now)  feeling completely and totally confused.
          Where do I begin??
           How do I start?
          When will it be my chance to make a difference in the lives of those who so desperately Christ?
In chapel the other day one of the graduating seniors said
            "How do we begin to stay...in a place where we are being trained to go?" 
God is calling me to stay where I am at..so that he may prepare me to Go -->
 I need to be patient, I know. But I've come to the realization lately that I'm not a very patient person. I want to follow Christ with all that I am...but he seems to make me wait a lot. And although, I know his timing is perfect, I just don't like to wait. I have always hated the word later and that's because I hate to wait.


Sometimes  All the time I want Christ to come back. I Hate this world we live in. I hate the fact that there are starving children in Africa, China, India, South America, EVERYWHERE...even here in The United States. People are dying ever day because they have nothing to eat, and not only are people dying, but they are dying without ever knowing their savior. People are out there crying and in desperate need of someone to love them. Little girls are out there cry because there daddies have left them...little do they know that their heavenly father wants to wipe away ever tear from their eye. The sick are dying because no one cares. People are out there watching the world drive by. How can I be so selfish! I sit there in my car while I pass yet another man, with a sign asking for help. MY HELP!
 My heart longs to love on these people. My heart longs to hold the little girl who is crying and tell her about my heavenly daddy. My heart longs to feed the starving children of this world. I want to love on all the orphans of this world. I want to play with the little boys in Africa that think no one cares. I want to give jackets to the people that are cold. I want to make meals for the sick. There is so much that I want to do. But right now....I have to stay.
I'm not sure why yet...but you better believe, I'm going to find out. I'll be waiting for the day when God gives me the go --> signal. So just wait and see... God is preparing the way and I'm going to be ready. Watch me.
So, this is a ton of complaining... Righteous complaining!
Which reminds me you should go listen to this by Shane Wood. It's Amazing! :)
After you listen to this...it really explains a lot. lol :) so happy listening.

my life as of late... :)

It's been a long time since I blogged last. Things have been kind of CRAZY! School is come to an end..I couldn't  be more excited (and sad all at the same time).
Anyways, this is going to be a big mess of random thoughts and more of the randomness of me. :)  


* I'm so ready for school to be over! Only 10 day till I leave for beautiful Colorado ( I miss my mountains)! Seem's crazy that my first year of college is almost over. It's gone by so fast. :) 


* I'm working at Camp Como this summer! AWESOME right?? :) I'm really looking forward to this summer. I have gone up to Como for summer camp since I was in second grade. I love being in the mountains...the air up there is so fresh and clean. God's beauty is all around and so evident. I loving being able to see God in the beauty around me. Several people from Ozark are also working at Como. :) 


*I Danced in the rain last night! Lisa and I ran out the door as soon as we heard the thunder. We watched the lightning and then heard the rumble of the thunder. It was marvelous!! My God is sooo good and sooo powerful!


*Why is the thing I want so badly...the thing that scares me the most??


* I think I want to pierce my nose. What do you think??


* We took a love language quiz for dorm devos a couple week ago...and I found out (Well I knew, but this reassured me.) that I am quality time. It explains soooo much.


*The count down has began for next semester....I'm soo looking forward to it.(Ha! I'm already looking forward to it and this semester is not even over yet.) I'm looking forward to the day when I move back in (I'm moving down the hall :). I'm looking forward to the day when my sister is on campus with me. I'm looking forward to the day when I get to see all my friends from school again. I'm looking forward to see how God moved in their lives over the summer. I can't wait to see how God changed them over the summer. I can't wait for this next semester. My classes are going to be awesome! I'm hoping to get a job next semester. After being at school for this last year, now I know what events i want to get involved in here on campus. I found a great church and I'm looking forward to get really involved there. Anyways, As you can tell...I'm really looking forward to next semester! :)


*Over spring break the Batchelder's introduced me to the show Chuck. Have you ever seen it?? I love it! You should check it out. :)  


* I have always loved warm weather...but there is nothing like the coolness of Colorado. But even though I love Colorado...I'm loving this warm Missouri weather. I like the warm wind. :) 


* I have a passion for missions. I want to be on the missions field right now. I would leave everything...I would drop it all, to be on a plane right now. But I know I have to be patient. God has me right where he want's me. I'm in the perfect place to learn all about him. I have the best professor's, the best friends, the best college, the best family. So, I've decided that I wont waste this time! I wont waste this opportunity to serve Christ right where I'm at. I believe God has me here for a reason. He's preparing me right now. :) 
I can't wait to see where God will take me next.

I have the Best parents ever!!!

I, pretty much have the coolest parents in the world! :)
Just thought you should know.
:)

~Kristie~

Me like...College!

Here I go again...

Father, hear my prayer, I need the perfect words...Words that they will hear And know they're straight from You.
I don't know what to say, I only know it hurts to see them slowly fade away.
SO MAYBE THIS TIME...
  I'll speak the words of life, With Your fire in my eyes. But that old familiar fear is tearin' at my words. What am I so afraid of?
SO HERE I GO AGAIN... Talkin' 'bout the rain And mullin' over things that won't live past today, And as I dance around the truth...Time is their friend and this might be my last chance to tell them that You love them But... here I go again...
Lord, You love them so...You gave Your only Son, If they will just believe...they would never die. But how then will they know if they have never heard?
Lord have they seen you mirrored in my life?

What am I so afraid of?? 
What am I so afraid of... 

      What am I so afraid of?
I have family that doesn't know Christ. They don't serve him with their lives. They don't know that he died for them. They don't know that he wants them... He wants to be their everything. He wants them...just the way they are. 
   Lately, they are all I can think about. I say I want to share the love of Christ with the world but how can I do that, when I can't even tell My own family about The GREAT God I serve with my life. I want them to know him..I want them to know the one, that has changed me life. The one that has made me, who I am. How then will I tell them?
Ahh...I am SOOO scared. I have no idea where to start. Where do I begin. How do I tell them that Christ lives. How do I tell them that he is reigning today. How do I tell them that he wants to provide for them. How do I begin to explain that he want to take all of them?? From every mistake and hardship. From every bad decision to every lie. HE WANTS THEM. All of them.
SO..how do I tell them that he has blessed them with sooo many talents. He want to use the gifts he has give them. HOW DO I TELL THEM???
 So this time I'll speak the words of life. With your fire in my eyes, Because this might be my last chance to tell them that... YOU LOVE THEM! 

Just to be with you...

Father, I delight to know your ways. I'll follow after you all my days. Just to be with you. Your glory all around me brightly shines. I'll wait for you to change this heart of mine. Just to be with you. 

Because, it's the way you love me a thousand hearts can not contain the way i feel when you are near...it's the way you move! It's the way you found me. A thousand tongues could not express how beautiful creation call to be with you. 

     I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU! 

This is my cry...Lord this is my prayer. 

  Lord hear me! Show me your ways... REVEAL YOURSELF TO ME! I want to see YOU! 

Let this week be a week of expecting the unexpected. I'm yours to use.

Has your heart ever been Broken??

Has your heart ever been broken before? 

I can say I don't think my heart has ever been broken... until now.

God is moving in my life. 

God is changing me, rearranging me. 

First, My God is the God that saves, he Love's me with such a passion and I know he will never leave me. He is constantly providing all that I need, He's there when I just feel like crying. He wraps his arms around me when I'm sick of dealing with the things of this life. When I want to run away. I know he WONT let me Go! I am held by the hands of Jesus and I know I don't have to be afraid.

I read a friend's blog the other day and it moved me to tears. God is working in her life and it is so plane to see. God is going to work through her and has given her talents that are just incredible. Anyways,  in her blog she talks about  how she want's to be beautiful...but not by how the world may looks at her, but at how God views her. Not at the way her clothes look or her hair but by the person God is allowing her to become. God is already using her in big ways and he is using her to touch my heart. I want to be beautiful. I long to be loved, and adored but not because of how cute my outfit is or what I'm doing with my hair. I want people to see my heart. I want people to see that I have a passion to serve Christ with all that I am. I want them to see me through the eyes of God. When I realized that this...God moved me. He moved me closer to becoming more like him. 

God is shaking me, pushing me, stretching me.

I'm taking Foundations for missions this semester. And in that class today, My heart was broken. Today I found my true passion. Today, God broke be. 

I'm not even sure I could even begin to explain all of the emotions and thoughts going through my head right now. But I know God is moving.

I'm almost scared. There is need for change in my life. I want to change, but it's going to be hard. I want to feel what God feels, I want to live, I want to love the way God would love others. I want my heart to break for what breaks his. And I simply want to serve others, with my life... With all that I am.    

So where does this leave me?? I have no idea, But I can tell you this..."I'm not the same as yesterday. It's really hard to explain how things have changed...but I'm not the same as before." 

hmm...

hmm...I need to blog more. I want to blog. I will blog... right after I finish this Book report. Yay for homework!!!! 

 ::Kristie::

A Concise Public Speaking Handbook.

A Concise Public Speaking Handbook is exactly what I'm supposed to be reading right now. But instead I'm writing a blog. :)

I'm not even sure what I'm going to write, I just want to write. I guess I just want to vent, But what about? I don't want to spill my heart out to the blogger world. I don't want to spill my heart out to anyone right now. So many questions have filled my mind over the last couple of days, weeks, months. Why this?... What if this happens? ...What if this never happens?...Why wont this happen?  I just cant seem to find any answers to these questions. I have been pouring over my bible and in constant prayer with my God, but none of my questions seem to have answers. There's always another choice or option. So I guess I will just continue do what I have been doing...or is that the problem? Thats it!! Who am I? Why am I the one asking God to move instead of me being the one that moves? I know God has an amazing plan for my life and he knows whats best for me and I am in love with my Saviour! He will provide all the answers in due time. I just need to be patient and know that God has the most perfect timing so I should just sit back and enjoy the things he is doing in my life. 

     Well I'm not even sure if this blog makes any since to anyone other than me. But I guess I really only need it to makes since to me. :) 

God Knows my passions and my desires. He knows my heart and loves me for who he created me to be. 

   Psalms 37: 4 "Delight yourself in The Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart"

So until tomorrow or the next time I blog I will be pursing God...With every thing I am! :)  

I love him!!! :)

 I'm a slacker. I have failed on this posting every day thing. But I'm jumping back on the bandwagon.

School is back in session. I love my classes!! I've been in school for a week now and have learned so much.

So here is a run down of my week.

Monday- God is good all the time!! God provided.

Tuesday- Classes started. I'm taking...

                 History of Ancient Israel w/ Woody Wilkinson

                 Christ & The Bible w/ Andrew Kershner

                 Foundations for missions w/ Chris Dewelt

                 Choir

                 Speech w/ Greg hafer

Wednesday- I love kids! I teach preschool at college heights on Wednesday nights. Love working with kids. They make me happy. 

Thursday- I love Ozark! I love the friendships I have made and are making here. I adore my classes and teachers. God has truly blessed me. I'm  growing more in love with God and want me life to be a pleasing sacrifice to him. I want to reflect God in everything I do. Also My Daddy turned 40 today!!

Friday- I love life! Friday was so much fun. I went and worked out with Lisa and then learned how to play racquetball. That was a lot of fun. I really enjoy it. A big group of us all went to the basketball game. Which was a blast! Go Ozark! We won! By a lot! I got to meet and see a ton of really great people! ;) Then we all went to pizza hut! I love my friends!

Saturday- It rained today. I love rain. Especially when I can sleep in and wake up to the rain pounding on my window. I slowly got out of bed this morning. I want to make sure I see God in everything. He is in everything, so I want to make sure I take time to see him. He is beautiful...isn't he?

Tomorrow is Sunday! I'm looking forward to church! It shall be grand. God has taught me a lot this week. I am amazed at what he is doing in me. I love him!

                

God is Good all the time...all the time God is Good!

So...school has started again. And once again I am praising God for all he has done, is doing, and will do. My God is Amazing! Every time I get too comfortable,God shows me just how much he can do, when I rely on him.

  We had to register for classes today and like in one off my earlier post I was worried about how I was going to pay for school this semester. My mom and I had added everything up and figured that I would need to come up with about two thousand for the spring semester. Which means that I would need a Job and have to find a TON of scholarships to be able to stay at Ozark. I was SO stressed. I needed and wanted to come back to Ozark. When I thought about staying home and going to another college, nothing seemed right. But every time I let my mind wonder and look towards the things that I knew God could do through me here at Ozark, at how much I had learned already in one semester..I felt so much peace about it. God was calling me to something better. So as I was going through all the lines at registration I was just praying for God to show up. If this was where he wanted me, he would come through and provide everything I needed. And guess what??( It actually should be no surprise to you...because my God is just that Good.) God once again showed me how BIG he was. How much he was looking out for me. So, after figuring out all the scholarships I had gotten, all I have left to pay for this semester is $464.00!!! God is Good all the time...all the time God is Good!! 

  So this semester no matter what, I will and am running toward God. My protector and provider. My Saviour and king. The everlasting God, who cares so very deeply for me. I am loved by the creator. And will never let him go. 

I love home! 

Home is where your story begins. 

A Real Woman.

I thought this was pretty cool! Have fun reading...

                                       A Real Woman...

                             …is glad she’s a woman and                              

rejoices in her femininity, expressing

it through her attitude, appearance

and bearing.

(1 Tim. 2:9-10)

…appreciates her father’s

protection, and respects and

submits to his authority.

In so doing, she is preparing

herself to exercise the Biblical

role in her relationship with

a possible future husband.

(Eph. 5:33-6:3, 1 Pe.r 3:1-2)

…does not compete for equality with

men or chafe at God’s design for male

and female, but delights in and understand

the importance of her calling to

complement man’s role. (1 Tim.2:11-12,

Eph. 5:22-24)

…does not relate to members of the

opposite sex in a flirtatious or forward

manner, but instead saves all

her passion for her future husband.

(Thess. 4:3-8, Prov. 6:25, 1 Cor. 7:1)

…values the cultivation of her mind

and diligently seeks after wisdom

and knowledge. (Prov. 22:17-21, 2:2-6)

…realizes her imperative need to

allow the Holy Spirit to control her

emotions and expressions of them.

(James 1:19-20)

…does not wallow in self-pity or

make a habit of voicing complaints,

but radiates cheerfulness and joy.

(Prov. 15:15, Prov. 17:22)

…restrains herself from listening to,

or participating in gossip, but instead

speaks with wisdom and discretion.

(Prov. 11:12-13, 22, 20:19, 3:11)

…is trustworthy and gains the

respect of those around her.

(Prov.31:11)

…uses her years of singleness to

seek and serve God without distraction,

and is content to leave the details

of her future to Him. (Ps. 73:25,

Phil. 4:11)

…seeks to make God her number

one desire and the Lover of her soul,

knowing that only He can fully satisfy.

(Ps. 73:25, Ps. 63:1)

…does not have a nagging, contentious

or manipulative manner in

which she deals with others. (Judges

16:16, Prov. 21:9, 19, 26:21)

…is not boisterous or loud in her

speech or actions but is characterized

by a gentle and quiet spirit.

(Prov. 9:13, 1 Pet. 3:4)

…encourages and builds up those

around her instead of criticizing and

tearing them down.

(1 Thess. 5:11, Eph. 4:29)

…holds her virginity before marriage

sacred and will not compromise it for

anything. (This one for guys too!)

(1 Tim. 5:22)

…portrays chastity, modesty and

reverence in her manner, and wears

the ornament of a gentle and quiet

spirit, which is her true beauty. (1 Pet.

3:3-4, Titus 2:4-5)