Today a friend said something that really stuck out to me. She said that she doing the things that she is doing now like school, ministry and what she'll do after she graduates out of obedience to what God has called her to. What a solid faith and trust in God. She has no idea of what God's plan is yet she is choosing to follow his lead out of obedience. She is putting all her trust in Him knowing that he will bless her through her obedience.
I am at Ozark out of obedience to God because this is where God has called me, yet I have no idea why. I haven't picked a major - I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have dreams and desires that currently seem very far out of reach. But even still Kid's and Children impress me with their child - like faith and the confident knowledge that when they pray God hears them. Middle Schooler's cause me to be completely ridiculious (and I love it). The thought of missions, or church planting, non-profit or youth ministry even campus ministry makes my heart skip a beat. Oh...the adventures I would go on. The thought of doing ministry itself just gets me excited.
I have a weird personality that enjoys the company of others and the thought of being alone scares me. I enjoy singing - even though I'm not very good at it. I have a huge smile that sometimes causes my face to hurt from laughter. I don't walk down steps- i mostly trip or fall or avoid them all together. The sight of the moon leaves me weak at the knees. Sunsets along with a good book will bring tears to my eyes. I find joy in the simple things like- bendy straws, scarfs, smiles, coffee dates with good friends, the start of a new journal, fall, the color yellow, My little brother and sisters mixed up words (their smiles can melt my heart), ice-cream, road trips...the list could go on and on.
My list of dreams are always changing, evolving into bigger and better and sometimes completely different things as God shapes and molds me. I have dreams i'm afraid to voice because the thought of them not coming to be frightens me. I have dreams that are also common and known. Like finding the right guy and God using the two of us to further his kingdom in ways we never could have done or imagined on our own. I dream about the ministry God has picked out for me. A ministry that consists of having an open house where anyone is welcome. I have dreams of friendships that last forever. Conversations over tea that last till morning. I have dreams of over seas trips and adoptions. Pages of one thousand gifts and a list that keep going.
I have no idea where all this is leading me. I have no idea where HE is leading me. But out of obedience I will continue on the journey. I'll take small steps and leaps of faith, wrong turns and confident steps forward. I'll continue to lean on Him trusting that he has a plan- because I have no reason not to. He's never failed me before. :)
