Has your heart ever been Broken??

Has your heart ever been broken before? 

I can say I don't think my heart has ever been broken... until now.

God is moving in my life. 

God is changing me, rearranging me. 

First, My God is the God that saves, he Love's me with such a passion and I know he will never leave me. He is constantly providing all that I need, He's there when I just feel like crying. He wraps his arms around me when I'm sick of dealing with the things of this life. When I want to run away. I know he WONT let me Go! I am held by the hands of Jesus and I know I don't have to be afraid.

I read a friend's blog the other day and it moved me to tears. God is working in her life and it is so plane to see. God is going to work through her and has given her talents that are just incredible. Anyways,  in her blog she talks about  how she want's to be beautiful...but not by how the world may looks at her, but at how God views her. Not at the way her clothes look or her hair but by the person God is allowing her to become. God is already using her in big ways and he is using her to touch my heart. I want to be beautiful. I long to be loved, and adored but not because of how cute my outfit is or what I'm doing with my hair. I want people to see my heart. I want people to see that I have a passion to serve Christ with all that I am. I want them to see me through the eyes of God. When I realized that this...God moved me. He moved me closer to becoming more like him. 

God is shaking me, pushing me, stretching me.

I'm taking Foundations for missions this semester. And in that class today, My heart was broken. Today I found my true passion. Today, God broke be. 

I'm not even sure I could even begin to explain all of the emotions and thoughts going through my head right now. But I know God is moving.

I'm almost scared. There is need for change in my life. I want to change, but it's going to be hard. I want to feel what God feels, I want to live, I want to love the way God would love others. I want my heart to break for what breaks his. And I simply want to serve others, with my life... With all that I am.    

So where does this leave me?? I have no idea, But I can tell you this..."I'm not the same as yesterday. It's really hard to explain how things have changed...but I'm not the same as before."