Here I go again...

Father, hear my prayer, I need the perfect words...Words that they will hear And know they're straight from You.
I don't know what to say, I only know it hurts to see them slowly fade away.
SO MAYBE THIS TIME...
  I'll speak the words of life, With Your fire in my eyes. But that old familiar fear is tearin' at my words. What am I so afraid of?
SO HERE I GO AGAIN... Talkin' 'bout the rain And mullin' over things that won't live past today, And as I dance around the truth...Time is their friend and this might be my last chance to tell them that You love them But... here I go again...
Lord, You love them so...You gave Your only Son, If they will just believe...they would never die. But how then will they know if they have never heard?
Lord have they seen you mirrored in my life?

What am I so afraid of?? 
What am I so afraid of... 

      What am I so afraid of?
I have family that doesn't know Christ. They don't serve him with their lives. They don't know that he died for them. They don't know that he wants them... He wants to be their everything. He wants them...just the way they are. 
   Lately, they are all I can think about. I say I want to share the love of Christ with the world but how can I do that, when I can't even tell My own family about The GREAT God I serve with my life. I want them to know him..I want them to know the one, that has changed me life. The one that has made me, who I am. How then will I tell them?
Ahh...I am SOOO scared. I have no idea where to start. Where do I begin. How do I tell them that Christ lives. How do I tell them that he is reigning today. How do I tell them that he wants to provide for them. How do I begin to explain that he want to take all of them?? From every mistake and hardship. From every bad decision to every lie. HE WANTS THEM. All of them.
SO..how do I tell them that he has blessed them with sooo many talents. He want to use the gifts he has give them. HOW DO I TELL THEM???
 So this time I'll speak the words of life. With your fire in my eyes, Because this might be my last chance to tell them that... YOU LOVE THEM!